Don't be dismayed if you can't make it to the light of Jesus on your own. No one can.
Making it to the light on your own is not a determining factor for everlasting life or whether Jesus loves you or not.
Jesus is love, and the Word of God tells us to call out to the light of this world, and 'the light of this world, Jesus,' will come to us!
John 1:5 And the light shined in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.
John 8:12 Then spoke Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that follows me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.
Jesus said in John 12:46 I am come as a light into the world, that whosoever believes on me should not abide in darkness.